well, just read her blog..somehow knew tat she'd talk about wat had happened today..anyways, i dun really wanna care..she says no one tries to understand..and but has she tried to understand other pple, her frens in the first place? maybe she did..and i just couldn't see tat..cos i dun feel tat she totally understands me? i dunno..true, i did not keep my promise..but can't she put herself into my shoes? and i did not forget the promise, the meeting was arranged at the last min and after weighing both, i felt that the meeting was more impt..i didn't like the way she pushed the responsibility to me..well, maybe she's did it out of impulse..i admire her for her enthusiasm in wat she does for the grp..really i do..till the extent tat i feel she's the one making things go on for the grp..and tat the grp can't do without her..i have this to tell her: i'm sorry tat i can't have that enthusiasm as you have..maybe our priorities in life are just so different..to put it simply, i'm not able to put God's work before my earthly priorities the way you do..anyways, she said we needed to talk things out..i told her to call me on my hp..no call came..
on the way to sch today, a thought suddenly came into my mind..i wanna try something new in God's ministries..honestly, i dun really wanna serve in GTF next yr..i thought of becoming a sunday sch teacher..maybe tat's an excuse for me not to serve in GTF..i dunno..i'll just have to pray bout it..
anyways, God has been good to me so far..my presentation on monday went on fine..didn't forget most of my lines..and the proj meeting today was fruitful...just can't wait for this wk to pass..and for accounting proj to be over..
really miss dear so much..he hasn't called..and ever since he left, i've been praying in a way that i've never done it b4..whenever i think of him, i'll just pray..the same prayer over and over again..perhaps i suddenly think that the more i pray, the more God will answer my prayer?? haha..i know tat's so not true..but really, i want dear to really experience God's power during these 3 wks..it's the best opportunity yet..can't wait for him to be back...i miss him.. :(
21 more days till exams start..exactly 3 wks..and i haven't really started on my revision..i'm worried..but i believe God will see me thru! really can't wait for exams to be over..hahaa..
16 more days before dear returns..
in Christ alone ♥
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